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[17 Nov 2009|02:01am] |
I wish I could go back in time to fifth grade and tell myself to lay off on the junk food and pearl milk tea, because overeating would be a nasty habit that I would attempt to break for the rest of my life.
Actually, wouldn't it be weird if my 40-year-old self just came here to visit me and warned me about something? How Twilight Zone-esque. Actually, that did happen in at least two episodes of The Twilight Zone.
That's a pretty scary yet interesting thought. I think I'm going to go to bed tonight imagining myself revisiting my ten-year-old self instead of an older me visiting the present me because the latter scenario is absolutely frightening. I refuse to envision that because then I'll picture that Twilight Zone episode where --- nevermind.
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[16 Nov 2009|09:55am] |
I don't think I'm going to get into USC. I just looked over my essays and they were terrible. I could have done so much better, and it's not like I didn't try. I spent hours and days working on them, and asked so many people to look over them. I don't know what the problem was, but in retrospect I should have written them differently.
I think the only essays I'm really proud of are my UC ones, especially UCSF, but those are the hardest to get into. The essays aren't that good enough to save me.
Should I reapply next year, or should I go to Touro?
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| ever get the feeling that you worked so hard for nothing? |
[15 Nov 2009|11:12am] |
Now, I may have only decided to pursue pharmacy in my second year of college, but once I knew what I wanted, I was determined to work as hard as I could to pursue it.
I spent the majority of my weekends studying, even if it meant having to pass up on parties and get-togethers, to earn a 3.8 cumulative GPA. I have a 3.9+ science and math GPA because the only science class I ever got a B in was chemistry my first quarter. UOP's average entering GPA of their class is 3.4. I could have slacked off a bit, earned a few more Bs, done more of the things I wanted, and it wouldn't have mattered because I didn't get in anyway.
I applied to over 30 jobs at the beginning of my second year, only to miraculously land a cushy, well-paid lab job at a pharmaceutical company. I worked there for a year until I got laid off, waking up at 8 am 3 or more times a week, scheduling my classes so that they were always after noontime.
I worked at a pharmacy for a year, enduring complaints from customers and insults from co-workers. I thought I would surely get in with my experience, but who was I kidding? So many other people I met had 2, 3, or even 4 years of pharmacy experience.
I worked as a TA, I participated in pharmacy club meetings, I was an officer of VOX, and for what? Of course, I enjoyed all the things that I did, all the people I've met, and all that I've learned, but somehow I thought I'd be good enough, and I wasn't.
Of course, doing all these activities and getting a high GPA doesn't mean I'm entitled to getting in. But I felt like I had the qualifications, the motivation, and the desire to be a pharmacist, and I felt like I expressed it clearly. I wish I could have done better, but how?
Granted, this could be because I didn't wait longer to apply. I mean, I only had three years to do all these activities, while other applicants waited a few more years to do more. Maybe if I had taken a year off, I could have gotten into UOP, or even UCSF. Instead, I feel lost.
Is it going to be worth it to take a year off and reapply for a school that was my top choice? Or should I just suck it up and go to Touro? Touro is accredited and close to home. The faculty that I met were very nice and welcoming. All that really matters is that I'll get a Pharm.D. My dad already paid the 2,000 deposit but he said if I decided not to go there it would be okay. I have no idea what else to say.
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